True story, I'm super awkward in person. I mean, maybe not around my friends, but in general, if I am hanging with a stranger, or needing to make small talk- I fail.
I don't really know why, I mean, I feel like I have lots to say, but over the last 10 years of life, and these 10 years of blogging on the internet machine, I've forgotton how to be a real human. I am really good at talking to the internet. I talk to the internet all day long, we have breakfast together, I clap at other people on the internet, most of them who I do not even know, I have entire virtul circles of friends from far away countries that I "talk" to everyday, I share my inner most thoughts with a screen and empty secrets into a giant black void of code and advetisments. WHY? I guess my question is why do we all talk to the internet so much, why is it better, more fufilling and so much more addiciting to be around the faceless one sided internet then it would be to be with a living, breathing friend, or to GOD FORBID HAVE A PHONE CALL with someone and hear someones vocal tone.
I realized that I had a problem when I realized that it's been almost two weeks since I had the time to check up with any of my friends, and I also realized that I hadn't had much time to spend on the internet machine, and THUS- I HAVE ZERO IDEA WHAT WAS HAPPENING IN THE WORLD of my friends. Like, zero. If I was not getting info information from their internet feeds, I simply was not getting it. So, I guess it's becoming official ladies and gents, we are becoming robots.
I cannot decide if I love it or hate it. On one side, I get to hide behind pretty filters and well thought out words, and on the other side, fuck man, it's lonely out here, I long for the human connection. I'm not sure what the answer is, I'm guilty on both ends, and I cannot decide if we are just an extreemly self-centered world of asshole, or if we just lost how to be a human being, not a human posting- somewhere along the way.
What do you think? Have we lost our ability to have a REAL human connection? xx